Below are the 2 most recent journal entries recorded in soclearnow's LiveJournal:

Sunday, January 29th, 2006
10:15 am	Your investment has greatly apprieciated Attention all shareholders in company symbol:MYHEART. As CEO, I would like to thank you for investing your venture capital. I know that that you have invested a lot of time and energy for a long time. After years of sluggish growth, the company has made some huge changes we are forecasting record income in 2006. I advise you to not sell your shares at this time. Dividends will be paid out at request. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 26th, 2006
9:47 pm	I finally know who I am and can accept and love myself Two years ago I was discussing autism with one of my customers at work. She was a student in college studying education of children with "special needs". I told her about my son who demonstrates some characteristics of autism. She said that she thought my son sounded like he had aspergers syndrome and gave me some information on it. I looked over the info and didn't really see how it applied to him, but for a second I thought that maybe it sounded like me. I quickly dismissed that notion. Who really wants to think that they are different. About a week ago, after my girlfriend and love of my life broke up with me(she says I'm crazy and need help), I decided to seek the help that I agreed I needed. I made an appointment with a psychologist. My sister suggested that maybe I have aspergers so we looked it up online. I really felt it might apply to me this time. I realized that I have always had great difficulty making friends. I dont even know how to talk to people unless I feel comfortable with them. I have had a prob with eye contact,cant interpret social cues, find myself in arguments about semantics, am accused of having a "tone" in my face that isn't intended and don't know how to deal with criticism(among other things). I read other peoples experiences on live journal and could really relate to them. After much self analysis(I know I am told I analyze things too much)I came to the conclusion that I do indeed have AS. I cried. I didn't want to accept the fact that I was different. At after days of self examining, I have gradually been able to see why I have been the way I have been. It shed light on my whole life. It opened my eyes. I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD MYSELF. 33 yrs of being lost and I suddenly accepted myself. My anxiety and depression has lifted from me. Today for the first time ever I realized that I love myself. Its been a beautiful week. I love the fact that I am canntly collecting data and that my brain functions differently from NTs. I believe it is truly a gift. I wish all AS could see the good part of being an aspie. Current Mood: accomplished (4 Comments |Comment on this)